Wish (c)

by Laceration Adrisole. Sat 18 Oct 2008, 11:23 am

Rating: PG 13
Type: One Shot
Dedicated to: Nathan Leone and Sheep for looking at it and telling me it made sense, and also for the advice from Nathan Leone -loves-

Thanks guys. It really means a lot.
Author: Laceration Adrisole lol@chu

Here's my entry whatnow? O_O

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Wish

Hey kid. Before you turn and run. Let me ask you something.

Ever wished upon a star?

Ever seen the childlike glimmers of its minuscule sparkles reaching out across the heavens to bond to its companions? Maybe that’s why the nation relies on stars to grant their desires; they’re forever up there, in an altruistic yet ineffectual attempt to brighten up the blackened sky.

But let me enlighten you, kid. Stars are just burning balls of inferno, slaughtering our atmosphere as slowly and surely as we are. They’re just gas and fire in an interminable battle for dominance. And we worship them?!

That’s humans for you, kid. Always searching for some omnipresent being to fasten their dreams and desires on. Oh well, it shuts them up about the welfare of our planet for some time when they get passionate about it, right?

Don’t look at me like that. Ignore this knife, just –hurry home to your parents. There’s no necessity for you to get caught up with this. There’s nothing to keep me motivated now, but that shouldn’t stop you.

What’s that? Magic? Hah. How old are you, kid? Grow up and smell the pollution. Should there be any hint of magic in this world, there’d be none of this pain. None of this suffering inflicted upon people who try so hard kid, they physically drain themselves trying- and for what?

No… magic? Magic died long ago.

Stop looking at me like that; eyes all innocent and pleading. I’m sure your parents are superior to me. Worth far more than I am. They’re almost certainly worth something to society, managing to retain a long term career and all that. Well, I never got a proper start in life, rarely got encouraged to do anything remotely worthwhile during my late night drinking sessions. Counsellors would just allow their eyes to glaze over once they saw me slumped, dishevelled in the chair at school. The master didn’t even rally enough vigour to meet my eye when he thrust me the expulsion papers.

What the fuck, kid? Don’t bring up all these memories. I was in a happy numb state. I was going to end it whilst anaesthetized and emotionless. Now… What? End it? Yes kid, I was going to take the sharpened blade of this tool and drive it straight through my – Why are there tears in your eyes? You don’t even know me kid. Stop getting implicated with corrupted scum resembling myself.

Why are you looking up? Heaven? No, oh no no no. It’s far too late to desire a heavenly greeting once I’ve done it. Your eyes should be averted from my lifeless ones and down to the ground. In a few minutes, you’ll be treading on my dishonest soul. So run along now, and ensure your mouth stays firmly secretive on this particular matter. No need for cretins to wonder my intentions behind it, they can suffer the agony of mystery. Now run the fuck along.

You're talking to me? I won't listen, you know. I'm too self absorbed. What? You get bullied? We all get bullied. Life is just one big piss take where it's eat or be eaten. And I'm vegetarian, kid.

I get mauled every few days by the big guys. Look at you, you have no marks, no inflictions, cute little smile on your face. It can't be that bad. At least you manage to run fast enough to get away before they can do any real damage. You don't run? Then how do you explain the lack of pain, the innocence still on your god-damn sweet face?

...Magic. Of course. You wish upon those stars? Well, I've got to admit, it does look like something has come out of it. Luck; I suppose.

Yeah, you're right. I could use some of that. But no – I'll not wish. Go away now, I don't want you to see this. You've made me a little more optimistic so just leave it. Go on. What are you waiting for?! Get away from me, I swear, I'll take this knife and stab it through your shining blue eyes, and watch the blood spurt over the fucking floor if you don't turn on your heel and practice that running. Let me tell you, wishes won't save you then. This is hell, and they can't save either of us. Step back. Here I come. One step, two steps. Yeah, let's introduce the fear. Remember it, it'll haunt you like a bad memory in the years to come.

I can't do this. Why won't you flee? Why won't you get a fucking life and forget me? Fine, I'll wish. Then will you leave me? Promise? Oh, Jesus I sound about your age. Okay, here I go.

I wish I wasn't such a fuck up. I wish my life would amount to something. And – and I wish for this kid to be happy and live a full life without pain.

And I wish – kid? Where'd you go? Where are you? Come on, don't tell me you were a hallucination, or some weird shit like that. I'm actually smiling, the sun is shining on my face for the first time in God knows how long.

Hah. Maybe there is a God. Maybe that was him, in cute kid form. He actually wants me to remain on this earth? What the he- what for? What good could I be to anyone or anything? I've got to – I have to -

Oh, who am I kidding? I can't do it anymore. Not now I've seen this beauty, untouched by man, unseen by beast. It's fucking astounding. Seriously, this warmth spreading over me, it's like – it's like a hug from an unseen person. I haven't been hugged in so long. It's – it's nice.

I see the flowers beginning to bloom. How long has that been going on for? A spectrum of vivid, breath taking colours just – Oh my gosh. It's amazing. There's a new smell, too. Not smoke or the residue from the pot I used to smoke. A nice smell, rich in taste and generally uplifting fragrance. Is that – is that the flowers? The world suddenly looks so much brighter, feels so much better

All I had to do was wish.