Saturday is like an autopsy table for my soul.

01.wake up.
02.realise pillow is not the person I drempt it was, wraped in my embrace.
03.check to see if you texted me, this always ends in disappointment.
04.stare at ciling, trees, fabrics, phone screen.
05.turn phone on and off, hope text messages magically appear.
06.wait about one hour.
06 1/2. during that hour, dirift in and out of sleep, finish dream about rolling in glass and wood shards and not getting hurt like everyone else. while listening to underoath.
07.slide out of bed.
08.look in mirror. damn I'm desgusting.
09.put on swatpants, warm hollister thermal.
10.plug in flatiron.
11.turn on bass amp. play to wake up.
12.fix parts of hair that have gotten curly with flatiron.
13.put ipod into jank speakers and turn on the following; green day, dance gavin dance, american taxi, mudvayne.
14.eat poppyseed muffin, pray I never get tested for heroin.
15.drink arizona diet green tea with ginsing.
16.wonder if Bailey is doing the same.
17.ponder trip to PA to visit my idol.
18.surf IAR and DA.
19.hate myspace. and facebook.
20.wonder why your not texting me.
21.repeat 15.
22.think about lastnight, how I had to find somone to cuddle with because you wouldnt. dont girlfriends usually do that.
23.wonder how moralistic the people on IAR are.
24.wish I wasnt alone in this house.
25.think about putting more pics on DA.
26.ask amy what else is wrong.
27.decide not to shower until tonight.
28.think about smashing pumpkins show with dad tonight.
27.think about getting dressed.
28.decide Ill wait on 27.
29.tell myself I'll post this on DA also.
30.inform internet Ill add more to this later.
31.I like the title, alot.

yeah I wasnt overly concerned with it. I just wonder somtimes. I'm shure everyone here is amazing.

Ryan Ross wrote:I'm just going to invite myself in and comment


"01.wake up."

that always sucks

"02.realise pillow is not the person I drempt it was, wraped in my embrace."

girlfriend in california -shrug- I know the pain


"08.look in mirror. damn I'm desgusting."

don't make me slap sense into you


"14.eat poppyseed muffin, pray I never get tested for heroin."

I lol'd. its only the opium ones; they dont sell them.
funny story though, my grandma spent years wondering why people cut the heads off her poppies whenever they flowered before one of us got the guts up to tell her that they were opium poppies


"19.hate myspace. and facebook."

every day.


"23.wonder how moralistic the people on IAR are."

is this a moralism like... sexuality thing? Cause you know at least half this site is DSG -shrug-
if its a drug thing, I was a pill popping alcoholic and I'm the admin

we generally dont mind as long as you're a good person


"27.think about getting dressed.
28.decide Ill wait on 27."

every day -_- due to reasons I may not disclose, my wearing of clothing can be quite physically painful at times


"31.I like the title, alot."

agreed.

I think you and i should be like, bros for life.


and i am desgusting. this is fact, proven by years of testing in the labs at CALTECH.