Puppy is alive, and she's our Miracle.

So this morning.

No, its not fucking fair.
She had 9 puppies, 7 girls two boys.
They all fucking died, but one. What went wrong? I felt them in her stomach just last night. Dad saw them in the ultrasound on Friday, why did they have to die? Why couldn't they breathe? They were perfect healthy puppies, each with a strong heartbeat.

They just refused to breathe.

Mum said one of the vets even started doing mouth to mouth on one of them.
I cried at work for 2 hours until my shift was over.
I can't fucking take this.
8 fucking lives gone, just like that.
We have to call the surviver Lucky, or something like Courage, or Hope or Faith.
Life fucking sucks.
She showed me the picture of them linedup laying in the basket next to eachother.
9 perfect fucking puppies, all beautiful and golden with tiny little noses and feet that weren't yet black.
Their tails looked like little snakes.
Why the hell did they have to die?

WHY THE HELL DID THEY HAVE TO DIE?!

-weeps-
-wails-

I can't fucking deal with this.
I just can't.
Its too much.
And my dad, oh my God, he's so disapointed, can you imagine how shattered he is? For the last two weeks of her pregnancy he didn't sleep because he spent every night watching her, she even slept in their room on dads side on the carpet so he could hang his arm over the bed and pat her.

I FELT THEM IN HER STOMACH LAST NIGHT.
I COULD FEEL THEM ROLLING AROUND.

Why did they just give up and die?
What was wrong with them?
I just want answers.
I just want them to be alive.

-wails-

Puppy lived.
We have one puppy alive.
she lived, and she's a miracle.
I cant believe the puppy is alive.
I love the name Seraphim, or Chanceux, or even Peleh.
Hamied means Angel of Miracles.
Puppy is our miracle.

My friend's Husky just gave birth to 7 pups.
One almost didn't make it.
So sad about those 8 that died, but maybe the miracle puppy is there for a reason

i'm so sorry about the puppies
my friend megan got a really gorgeous puppy last week, gypsy leigh, but she got mauled by her brother's dog on wednesday.
it's a bit different from never being able to actually know them, i guess, but it's a similar thing.

but i'm really glad that that one lived.
post photos sometime!