These lungs have sung this song for too long.

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These lungs have sung this song for too long.

Post by tea-boy. on Thu 29 Jan 2009, 9:46 am

It didnít hurt the first time because I had never known anything else.
But once it was taken away. . .everything collapsed.
And it wasnít like things just faded out.
There was the terrible tumult and then everything was ripped out roughly, bit by bit.
And all the destruction left me paralyzed.
It took me so long to even think about getting on my feet.
When I read that line from Perks, I always think of you.
Because I made you my everything and you threw it all away.
And instead of falling asleep on the phone at midnight, I spent restless night longing for your voice.
And instead of seeing the bright wisps of serenity, there was only ravenous fire.
And tonight was the first conversation weíve had where we stayed up till eleven on the phone for a good year.
And it hurts so fucking bad because I know that I was your lullaby to sleep tonight and you donít even care that Iíll be sleepless once again.
Youíre using me again, and even after a year Iím still not strong enough to stop you.
Right now your eyes are closing and your soul is floating because I provided you with inner peace and soothing words.
I just want you to spend one sleepless night like me.
But I canít because I still fucking care and I still fucking love you.
And after three years I canít figure out whether youíre killing me on purpose or not.
You really are killing me. Every time Iím not good enough for you to talk to, a piece of my heart disappears.
Every time you pretend you donít know me part of my soul cries out for you.
AndÖandÖandÖ

Do you know I would be complete if I could have that night back?
The one where we held each other under the stars and tried to drive out our demons.
I just want that once more, fucking please.

I love you. I hate you. I need you. I don't.
You were everything. You were nothing.
Take me back. Leave me alone.
Love me. Hate me.
You are the the biggest scar on my heart and the one I never want to get rid of.
Just fucking break me, you're already 99% there.
Oh god, someone take the pain away.
But wait, I want that to be you.

...

GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD
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Post by Isis on Fri 30 Jan 2009, 4:54 am

It hurts me to see so much pain and misery in you. And it hurts for me to realize that I felt like that for two years. I hate realizing what I was. I hate knowing that I still feel like that all the time because of someone.

I wish that I could take away all the pain you have. I wish I could make it better. Because you need it. Because you deserve it. Because I love you. -loves-
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Post by Adrisole Q. Kazoo on Fri 30 Jan 2009, 5:11 am

Aw, Meg... -loves-

I know how you feel, a bit.
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Post by tea-boy. on Fri 30 Jan 2009, 5:21 am

Thanks guys. -loves-
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